As weird as this sounds, I am glad I had two max down days. It let me visit something that caused me to shut down before. Something inside. And the understanding, recognition of it, came through very quickly. What it is, exactly, I am close but not completely sure of. It is not s single ingredient type of thing. Very complex, a blend of so many things in history, personality, experience, current mood, place in time of life, my own training even.

My two biggest problems related to trading;

1) Not holding a runner (dealing with uncertainty)
2) Whatever that other thing is.

If I could thank my own post I would. That was very real, very concise and specific, and half of it easily addressable. The other half I am getting closer.

I am living in a friend's house, and it is a very well-known and popular place here. HUGE parties, where he brings in portable restroom trailers type of parties. And so recently someone who works for him had a birthday party on our porch, 2' from my trading desk. My dog is so scared of new people. Would not hurt anything, but something happened to her before we got her, and she is a basket-case around strangers. So as she was nearly knocking people down by getting them caught in her leash, I apologized to my homeowner friend's sister. She said, "It's ok, she will probably grow out of it. How long ave you had her?"

"Since she was 6 months. She just turned six"

There was this look of surprise, and then a laugh.


I am in year 6 of trading. Don't laugh.

Merriam Webster on confluence

1

: a coming or flowing together, meeting, or gathering at one point < a happy confluence of weather and scenery >


2

a: the flowing together of two or more streams

b: the place of meeting of two streams

c: the combined stream formed by conjunction

GaryD 

As weird as this sounds, I am glad I had two max down days. It let me visit something that caused me to shut down before. Something inside. And the understanding, recognition of it, came through very quickly. What it is, exactly, I am close but not completely sure of. It is not s single ingredient type of thing. Very complex, a blend of so many things in history, personality, experience, current mood, place in time of life, my own training even. My two biggest problems related to trading; 1) Not holding a runner (dealing with uncertainty) 2) Whatever that other thing is.

Both are the same thing, IMHO.

I am in introspection mode.

iqgod 

Both are the same thing, IMHO.

Yes, you are right. They are very closely related.

What do you see is the connection?

Ninja keeps reminding me that my license will expire on 3/27. I have looked at Sierra. It is certainly double the cost on Ninja, probably more. For my trading anyway.

GaryD 

Ninja keeps reminding me that my license will expire on 3/27. I have looked at Sierra. It is certainly double the cost on Ninja, probably more. For my trading anyway.

How so?

GaryD 

Ninja keeps reminding me that my license will expire on 3/27. I have looked at Sierra. It is certainly double the cost on Ninja, probably more. For my trading anyway.

If you own a lifetime license, you need to contact them. You should not be getting this notice.

Going to gap open. This area I have had marked since last week. Prior bracket/NPOC/618 confluence